Gaybeef - The road to yourself or my SM

As he begins this way? First, you unconsciously ostanavlivaesh spanko look at pictures, you begin to read now and then at first seemingly "dirty" stories about the floggings and Bondage, occasionally zaglyadyvesh forums and conference. "No, it is not for me, what delusion - that, to find good man, get married, children, friends, all live so ... affection, love and kisses ... incompatible bruises." But time goes by, you go to discos and "vanilla" visits, and when the most gentle guy will be the last pig when after bessonoy night before competence by reading finally - something! "O history" seems you have this growing, irresistible desire to stand on your knees in front of the only master, it is still vague neoformivsheesya desire to take the pain of it as a supreme tenderness; when balancing itself, you catch myself thinking that all would be sacrificed for the fact that at this moment the heavy hand of men's bestowed upon you badly - sweet pain that it whips over and over again dropped to твои thigh and zade, burning, almost sdiraya skin ... pay their will, burn one desire, hustle and cry, then begin your way to itself. "No need, I do not want me to leave, so for that I am?" And after kissed his hands and ask for forgiveness. For what? Thanks, ask another, wait visits. Only one, only with him. Do not belong to yourself! In the morning you ask yourself 'I - mazohistka? " Mistrust, fear of new representatives. Non-...
Another long you will persecute themselves from the idea, but one day you meet him, and all of his masters in your life reveals. Fantasies turn into reality, and that is always difficult. There will be a lot, a lot of pain, but you learn to love him for what he causes you the pain, fear him, respect him. I respect themselves. Since proudly worn his body marks his "love" in the mystery of the soul - only your particular passion.
And when - something you are proud and oblegchenim itself will say "Yes, I - mazohistka!" Simple, "vanilla" guys cease to exist for you. "In order for a woman to take a whip." Yes, you hate to read Nietzsche, and can be Michel Foucault, and, of course, the beloved "laskogo" Kundera in his slapping peremeshku with hugs and of an flesh. Interpenetrating, the unprecedented closeness to the intensity of ... Such happiness and be another such pain, such as not all. Being edistvennoy only his slaves ... getting fully ... melt ... to sprawl; be in captivity this passion ... And - another already does. Will "kreshi, tears, quarrels, but after the next" breaking "you will realize that the other way for you not. And getting its first - well-deserved! -- O ring and the "Dog-collar" You pochuvstveush slaves themselves belonging to the whole world, this secret community of people, as you are sharing their life, before and after getting acquainted with the secret, powerful, all-embracing value of the four simple letters B and D and S and M. ..

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